Am I gay?

Okay so I know the title sounds stupid but I’m honestly confused. For years ive had these thoughts in the back of my mind about maybe being attracted to girls. They’ve always been there but I always try to dismiss them as normal (as in I’m straight ) . I’ve had relationships with guys that just feel weird to me, like I find guys attractive but when I’m kissing them or even having sex with them I feel weird like it’s nothing . When I have sex I close my eyes and picture women, but I’ve also heard of other women finding women hot yet they’re straight.

I don’t know what to do, because I feel the only way to know for sure is to be with a woman but I don’t want to use someone to experiment and also I wouldn’t know what to do. I’m so confused