I want a baby

I can't have one right now because I'm not ready yet financially and not to mention I still live in an apartment. The weirdest thing is, I've been wanting one ever-since I was 15 and I'm 22 now. I have no idea why my baby fever never stopped. I know how babies are and I understand that they're a handful. I also want them to grow up in a loving family, equipped to have all the necessities they need to grow up as healthy kid, and positive environment. I can't provide that yet so I can't have one but lately that's all I can think about. Like I said, I've had it since I was a teen but it's different now because even though it didn't stop, this time around it's stronger. It's driving me nuts 🙃😒🙃😰