So some back story... when I first started high school back in 2011 I was fit. I played soccer all through high school for two teams so I was definitely in shape. And I loved it! Because those years before that I was heavy and my appearance just wasn’t where everyone else’s was. And I seriously had no self confidence. So flash forward to after high school I still had a body that I felt good in.

This is what I looked like before I got pregnant.

And then I got pregnant ... and don’t get my wrong I loved every second of it but o gained weight and I gained it FAST

And I lost so much self confidence it was BAAADD. And I thought that after having my son that a lot of the weight would shed off ... but I was wrong !! My son is a year and a half and I only lost 10 pounds !!!!

That’s a more recent pic of me and I can just see it in my face that I haven’t lost any weight.

And It makes me so sad when I’m trying to work out and lose weight and nothing is happening !! I’ve been trying since after I gave birth and I swear it’s one step forward and three steps back ! I literally look at myself in the mirror and feel so gross ! And I know I’m not that big but to me, I am. And I want to become a car model eventually and when I see my body it makes me want to cry becasue I know I’ll never be able too.. I just want to stop eating altogether ...