I can't breathe

Hello there, I just need someone to tell this to. I have really bad anxiety and panic attacks all the time, and I've been having them a lot and it's all because I have no one in my life! I have no friends, boyfriend, And I can't even talk to my family because I'm a person that keeps everything in! And I know that's bad but I can't help it it's my personality, and I'll I want is someone who will get me! Everyone just thinks I'm a bitch, stuck up, and self centered. I never can show the real me because I have a fear that no one will like me! A lot has to do with the friends I used to have, because I was never enough! I always try to hard to please people because I just want to be liked! I guess it just doesn't work out for me. I just hope I'm not the only one like this?