Sorry if it’s a little long...

So my husband and I were best friends before we got married we officially started dating in 2012. He has a daughter she was 2 when I came into her life she’s now 7. He went overseas in 2013 and I was taking care of his daughter like she was mine she was literally attached to my hip if you saw me you saw her. He came back we got pregnant he proposed at the baby shower November 2014. Our baby girl was born January 2015. We got married September 2016. I then became a stay at home mom. Found out in November that were expecting another little one he was so happy! In January just 4 months after we were married he started cheating. I found out in March. I talked to her asked her if she knew he was married she said yes. So I asked her to please stop talking to him so we could at least try to fix our marriage but she never did. Once she came along I never stood the chance of ever getting my husband back. Towards the end of March I found out that our unborn son had a Trisomy 18 and it was lethal. I was too far to get an abortion so I had to carry him until the unknown happened. June 24 2017 I found out that he had lied to me and told me he had to go to military training a couple weeks earlier but he really went on vacation with his mistress. 3 days later went to my doctors appt. to only find out that my son was gone. Hardest thing ever he didn’t care. So like a month later he claimed he wanted to try and fix it. We didn’t wait until my 6 weeks was up so I found out in September 2017 we were expecting again. He was ok about it but scared the same thing would happen. Until I found out that I was expecting twins boy and hit. He wanted me to get an abortion but I wasn’t doing that. To make it short I found him in our room closet sitting down with his gun(he’s a police officer) pointed at his head. I had to do what I could to talk him out of it cause our 2 year old was there. We got in a car accident in November and when I went to my OB I was put on bed rest at home cause I had dilated 1 centimeter already at 14 weeks. But my husband was no help he treated me like crap and I had to take care of our daughter even though I was suppose to be in bed rest. 2 weeks later I needed up in the hospital baby girl was trying to come. While I’m in the hospital bed he’s on the phone with her texting and telling her he loves her. After being there four days I finally had the twins and lost them. He was so happy it showed. 2 days after I lost them he was at his mistress house. I left and went to my grandma. Came back and it got worse. He basically moved in with her and her two kids. Left me at the apartment with our daughter with no money. He did pay the utilities. January 2018 I filed for divorce. I got a job in March in may we had to move out of the apartment we had nowhere to go. Sneaking around to stay at my grandmas she can’t have live in guests.(lives in senior citizen apartments.) Divorce was finalized in June. He has to pay child support. His weekends are 1st and 3rd... He doesn’t get her. We are go back and forth from hotel to a friends house to my grandmas. And he said he doesn’t feel bad. He told me to get on section 8 and give him our daughter. Oh and he’s still with his mistress Shakoya Harvey and a couple others. Feel free to do like I did and find her on Facebook and call her out on it.