Is it bad that I don’t want a baby shower for my 2nd pregnancy?

What’s your opinion? My reason is honestly that my parents have an unstable relationship and fight and my dad made a big scene on my first baby shower with baby #1. Second, my in laws. My father in law has been rude and mean to me in past and my MIL is such a judgmental and over possessive person... long story. But I don’t really want them to throw my baby shower and I’d rather say I don’t want one than to feel stressed about who I can and can’t invite or someone throwing a attitude tantrum. Plus I know the items that I want to buy myself. Some are pricey but very good quality and some are from small businesses that I want to support. I don’t know, any ideas or input ladies??