I’m not sure what to do sometimes I feel empty inside... within this passed year I lost 2 brothers to suicide. I’m away from my family due to being in the military. Since aug my husband has deployed (dual military) I suppose he is feeling insecure since I didn’t want to have sex, due to my grieving. I’m not sure how to feel. He has before been mentally and emotional abusive. We’ve been married 6 years and I don’t feel like he’s ever going to change and it hurts. I need him now more then ever and I can’t take this anymore. I don’t want to talk to anyone for my and his career sake. And I’m just stuck and empty.....