Pregnant and the father wants an abortion and I don't.

Paige • 25. Baby #1 (LK) is almost 3 years old.
I found out today that I'm about 4/5 weeks pregnant. The father of my baby broke up with me in early June after a year of dating. We ended on good terms, we just fought too much and agreed to take a break and work on our friendship. Well now I'm pregnant with his baby and we are not together and  He doesn't want to be in a relationship. I told him today I was pregnant and he immediately went to abortion. I'm not against abortions, but I could never have one because the guilt would eat me alive. I asked him about adoption and we both agreed that we can't see our baby and give them away and leave them wondering why their mom and dad didn't want them. I would like to keep the baby, but my financial status is very difficult right now. I've already been offered loads of help, but I'm scared I couldn't provide. What do I do? Because I don't think I want to have an abortion. Advice?