I never thought I would ever be writing something like this. I am in complete shock. But... I KNEW IT!!!!! Here is how....

Let me start off by saying thankyou to all you beautiful women! You have no idea how much this app and all of you have helped me, I have learnt so much over the last 2 years being apart of this community. Whether you answered my questions or whether I read the posts and comments I see! 👏🏼😍

What I did relevant and irrelevant:

-took folic acid for 4 months/ stopped taking it the month I got my BFP

-switched to all PH balanced products

-switched to a menstrual cup (best decision ever)

-drank less coffee 🤷🏻‍♀️ not on purpose

-ate slightly cleaner foods

-tested ovulation (didn’t test this cycle)

I see so many women say “stop trying, it’ll happen” and yes I know it is annoying. I thought about it and I tried.. but it didn’t last a second. It’s hard to stop trying for something you want so badly.

Recently I had a lot of stress and thought it will never happen for me. I am just one of those people and I have to accept it.. I had enough, I gave up for my own good.. I had to stop breaking my heart. I had never had a pregnancy scare and my partner had never had a pregnancy scare ever since having his son and he has his own health/medical problems.. it just wasn’t going to happen. I tricked my mind for a moment that it wasn’t the life for me. That I didn’t want it. It wasn’t meant to happen for a massive reason and I can’t win against that battle.

This was my cycle last month and it very similar to the rest.. same patterns... starts dipping a few days prior to AF

But then I started feeling so different.. I wasn’t symptom spotting.. I hadn’t even thought about conceiving this month and we just had fun!! Until... I was sick... thought I had a stomach bug.. my temp wouldn’t dip... I was a day or two late (last cycle was the longest I’ve ever had I’m usually 27-28days)

I couldn’t wait... this morning I ran to get dressed once my Love had gone to work and I went out and got some tests... my heart was racing!!! I was actually arguing with myself saying “why are you so nervous and excited!! Stop getting so pumped!! When has this EVER happened to you?! It’s not going to happen, it never will do accept it!!! It will be negative!! Go get the tests to prove it!! Calm down!!! You’re stupid!! Sound like a broken record!!” I was fighting myself on this but I KNEW IT!!! Deep down I just knew!!!

I got home- I couldn’t wait- I had to force myself to pee.... and honestly.... I couldn’t have screamed any louder... I thought I had the test upside down when that test line back up within second SO BRIGHT!!!!

You can see the “not” in the digital because of the angle I was taking the picture 😂🤦🏻‍♀️

So... from what I have worked out in my calendar... this is what I have...

Symptoms & Other (TMI)-

1-7DPO I was just constantly tired having to nap. I ate ALOT

This was when I felt something was going on so I decided to start logging again...

From then-on, every day I was tired, backache, felt sick, had all flu symptoms, bloated, frequent urination, heartburn, extremely bad mood, skin break out, sore boobs only round the sides

My biggest symptoms were being so tired and napping.. and being extremely gassy, I was queefing bubbles (which never happens)... I was sick, increase in temp or no change and weirdly every single day from 7DPO I felt a massive feeling like I was about to have AF show in a real ugly way! The feeling of your period coming is no joke.. it literally feel EXACTLY THE SAME!! All the symptoms feel the same!!!

8DPO- creamy CM. Constipation. Stressed. High sex drive.

9DPO- increase in creamy CM. appetite on&off

10DPO- creamy CM. Palpitations. Nose bleed. Extremely emotional. Gas pains

11DPO- watery CM. Sick. Emotional over food. Food cravings. Trapped gas in chest. Feeling of bubbles popping through stomach after my favourite meal then threw up shortly after.

12DPO- gush of watery CM. Pulling feeling in middle of lower abdomen/groin

13DPO- watery/milky CM. Feel hungover. Dehydrated. Hips hurt. Craving lemons & onion bhaji’s. Sick. Gone off chicken. Migraine. Cervical position (low.firm.open)

14DPO- gush of watery CM (thought I had AF).

Dehydrated. Pulling/stretching feeling in the night. Either extremely hot or extremely cold. Wake up with cold sweats. Past 3 nights I have dreams of BFP’s (I have before) and no matter what I was doing in my dream I was eating blueberry muffins (thought it was weird haha)

Craving onion bhaji’s and spicy foods, emotional again and crying hard because I thought I forgot my dogs birthday 🤦🏻‍♀️ cervical position (high,soft, closed)

And today I feel exactly the same 😅

I feel like I have missed something out 😂

I am extremely nervous and excited to tell my baby when he gets in from work! 😩😭😍🤰🏻

I hope I have a healthy pregnancy and it’s a sticky bean!! 🤞🏼

I worry about this gift I have been given! But I will think positively and bask in the news 😍

Spreading all the baby dust there is in the world to all of you!! Goodluck!!

Now what???... now what do I do? I have no idea what I’m doing 😂😂🙈