Today I come to this app to update my pregnancy and start seen all this baby's picture pregnants mama showing their bellys and I'm just here looking at those pictures and thinking why I can't do this I feel awful just thunking that in 35 days my baby is going to be born and I will hold her for a little bit of time and then she's going to be send to childrens hospital (nicu) 😔 I love her and feel like am not worth it enough to have this baby I feel like everything that is happening to her and is going to happen is my fault..

After she is born she has to get plenty of surgeries, and I feel like am I bad women because of me she gotta have all this surgeries. She's on the worst level for the DR's and won't take her home until she's around 2-3 month's old 😢😭