Ok so I have unfollowed my cousins on fb because I was so bummed out and jealous that they announced their 3rd pregnancy and I only got to try for a month because we had a chemical pregnancy and freaked so out so now he's not sure he wants to do it or not. I want my third and final baby because I have always wanted 4 but then I got divorced after 2. And i was going to wait but with cervical cancer and the surgeries coming up I've only got time for one more if we hurry. He doesn't have any kids but love mine. I just want one more. And i hated to do it. I felt horrible about it but unfollowed my cousins because of the pregnancy news. And then I get an evite through fb for her baby shower! She is 11 weeks pregnant >. < and here comes all of those crappy feelings back. :(