My SO and I have had the most trying times in our relationship this year. We’ve been together for 4 years, and just got engaged this past July 7, 2018.

We dominantly stayed at his fathers house after 1 year into dating, and that led to our 2 year mark. I graduated HS, became a Nurse and had enough things together to get my own place. We’ve now been staying here for the “2nd half” of our relationship. (So, Dated 1 year, lived with him, 2nd/3rd year, stayed at my place)!

I say all of that to say it’s been overbearing. We met when I was 17 - he was 20, now I’m 21 - he is 24.

We’ve been on 1 vacation with his sister 2 years ago to New Jersey and man we were dirt brokeeeeee. I was so uncomfortable even enjoying — that was only 3 days to celebrate her birthday. His sister borrowed him money for us to at least enjoy. I’m one to not ask a damn person for anything...parents, friends, anyone. I rather stay home, be content and grind until I can afford to do what I want to do. I’m talking 12+ hour shifts, 4 days a week...sun up to sun down. However, I love what I do! My SO felt “lonely” though...

This February 2018, I left my job of 2 years after he told me he wanted to be the provider. I fell for it. On top of that, I’ve been incredibly sick since the beginning of this year due to GI disturbances, and have not been able to work even if I wanted to.

Now, his sister has been planning this next big vacation to go to Disney in Florida and I’m dreading it’ll be the same if not worse than the last trip. I can admit, I don’t have the funds. He’s saying he wants to spend $300+ for 3 days at Disney for me (he got his tickets too) and fly us out tomorrow, an additional $300+ for both of our tickets, and then have me ask my mom for some “help” if she can. Not only that, but this trip is going to be 12 days long — NOT 3, as it was in Jersey.

I don’t know how to say no because I really want to go...the home while we’re there is paid for. I know his parents/sister wouldn’t mind helping us again because that’s just how they are 😔 but I can’t help but to feel like a leech or embarrassment when it comes to us. Like when are we going to get our shit together?!

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Vacation 🤩 = his family, leeching, beaches, Disney, enjoying because we can, bring young dumb & broke lol, etc.

Staycation 🎭 = SO and I being separated for almost 2 weeks, resentment, what if’s, putting out applications for work, fresh air, time apart.

🚨HELP🚨