I went to bed last night in a wonderful mood. I’ve been happy for 2 weeks with pregnancy symptoms all over the place! I was waiting on this weekend to test because I got paid today.

I just knew I was pregnant... so convinced.

I woke up in the middle of the night with bad cramps. I just laid there whispered “no no.. God please no.” They went away and I feel back asleep.

Our alarm went off and I was in so much pain. I walked to my bathroom and.. blood... blood everywhere. I sunk to the floor and cried. I thought this was it. I thought I finally made it. I thought I finally had my baby.

I tried to hide it from my husband just for the day but he saw me grab my heating pad and midol. He grabbed me and hugged me and cried and said “baby I’m so sorry”

Idk how much longer I can do this. It’s been over a year. I think it’s time to give up. My heart can’t take it anymore.