Feeling guilty

I’m thinking on how to tell my husband that all this time going to doctor and wasting our money and waiting to be blessed with a baby. Is long over due for me. I decided I don’t want kids no more. I’m scared to have this conversation with him since, we have been wanting this for 8 years. I know many of you have waited longer but I feel like it’s not in gods plan for me to have a child so I don’t want one no more. I cried so much for one that I no longer want one. I feel guilty for feeling this way, but now when they asked why I have no children I excitingly say, I don’t want kids. I use to hate to be asked since I didn’t want to say we were still trying. I’ve felt like this for quit some time now, and I feel I’m learning to be ok about it. We where told we needed IVF. Thanks for reading, English is not my first language so sorry for the grammar! Just needed to vent, hope I’m not the only one that feels this way :)