This happened a little over a month ago but I'm just bringing myself to think about it out loud much less tell anyone other than family. It's a long story but I've got to get it off my chest.

On July 27th I took a test because my husband always jokes about "you're probably pregnant" we have been trying for almost 2 years. So I always take a test just to prove him wrong.. I sat there thinking "I'll actually wait the whole 5mins this time". Well I was playing on my phone and I just glanced and BOOM positive!! A BFP at that. Not 2 mins in. I cried like a baby and so on lol

On the 3rd of August I started bleeding not alot but enough to make me wonder being my first pregnancy we decided to go ahead and go to the E.R. By the time we got called back I'd already stopped bleeding but de6ti stay to get a blood test done. That way it was 100% we were pregnant. My HCG levels were 3100. Very high with me only being 7-8 weeks. We went home with the orders of taking it easy at work.

August 6th I had just gotten paid so my husband and I decided the best way to go about this was to get what we could with every check while we had the time. 2 weeks before we had just gotten emergency custody of our nephew. We went and brought so much stuff that we were going home to clean out a closet to make room for all the stuff we were going to get. As soon as we got home I was bleeding AGAIN! Right after we had just went and gotten over $200 worth of baby stuff. I was bleeding enough that it was though my pants and I had no idea. A very fast run to the E.R revealed that my levels had dropped 50%. At that point the "Doctor" checked my cervix. Looked my husband and I dead in our face and said "you have definitely miscarried but I don't know where the blood is coming from" and walked out the door.

The following Thursday we went to the OBGYN and that showed that I'd had indeed miscarried. Not 1, not 2, but 3 babies. And that I had a 27% infection to my blood due to the miscarriage. I decided that I didnt want surgery or a pill that my body would do what its supposed to do on it's own. Two days later my blood came back at 40% infected. At that point we no longer had an option. A D&C and scope to make sure that I didnt have a egg in my tubes. I had one in my right tube that was removed as well.

This is the lowest I've ever been. After that being my first BFP and finding out I was going to be blessed with 3 babies is the happiest I've ever been in my life! To the lowest I could ever imagine. I still haven't had a period and I'm a little nervous. Praying I'll see those 2 lines again. My husband had been my rock. From staying up all night and crying with me to just not talking about it when I'm in a good mood. He knows what I need before I can even think about opening my mouth. I just want to be able to talk about it without ugly crying (like I am right the second). Prayers and baby dust!!! Just waiting for everything to fall back in place.