This year ive gone from 65kgs to 88kgs. Didn’t see it happening. I don’t know how I let myself get this way! I’ve always been that tiny skinny girl people were like “uhh you have such a good bod” back in high school an now I’m huge! I loved my curves at first but now I’m noticing unhealthy issues developing. First is heartburn. I chock on acid.. I sometimes burn my nostrils from acid. I’m in pain every minute of everyday because of acid.. it doesn’t leave! It’s damaging! Doctors don’t take me seriously and donttry an understand! I’m on medication for it that don’t help. An I don’t want to take medication forever..

My next issue is I’ve always had up and down period cycles.. I’ve been two weeks late maybe twice. BUT never have I skipped 3 months and gone without a period.. babes I’m trying to conceive here.. an now I don’t bleed.. it’s heart breaking! I want my period back.. I have painful periods as it is so when I finally get it back I already know the devil will be inside my uterus.

I’m scared.

And also I HATE my body. I hate my gut. I hate my flabby arms. I hate my love handles on my hips. I hate my muffin top with GIANT purple stretch marks EVERYWHERE reminding me “oh hey you’ve never carried a Child but let’s give you the stretch marks anyway!!” I do not fit any of my clothes at all!!! I’m tired of it.

I got my luxe protein powder and fat burning capsules and detox tea sitting in my cupboard waiting for me to FINALLY use it.. I’ve had them sitting there for 6 MONTHS! but I have no motivation..I just DONT know where to start. I need to lose weight.. I NEED to! If anyone has any routines they did, any tips? Any websites that helped them any diets other than the usual, any exercises they swear by.. please tell me in comments! Share your story and shop me before and after a if you dont mind? Please? I need the help!