General advice

Hellooo, so basically I’m really paranoid about pooping and hate telling people when I’m going (even though I know they know I do it I just find it awkward) but the past few months i bleed every time I poop and it hurts quite badly and I’m worried about it at first I thought it may have been a tear but it’s been going on for too long but I am embarrassed and scared to tell my mum or the doctors as I don’t tell anybody when I poop does anyone know what i should do?