Feeling alone

Melissa • 👼🏼 waiting for my 🌈

I had a mmc in April it was devastating. Then got diagnosed with hashimoto hypo thyroid. I’m 10dpo my boobs are sore my boyfriend swears I’m pregnant I took a test yesterday and it’s negative I know it’s a little early but I can’t help but feel like these cramps are period cramps. I’m just sitting here drinking coffee crying I called out of work because I just feel sad and depressed. I told my boyfriend I had cramps and he got so sad and said that sucks the means you’re not pregnant 😢 I want to have my rainbow baby so bad. I don’t even know why I’m crying so much the pms must be real bad this time at 10dpo Lol I also had a dream last night I was in labor and dr was moving my baby to face head down (weird right ???) I just needed to vent I can’t say anything to anyone else about this I feel if no one reads it cool just needed to get this off my chest!!!! Lol