HAS ANYONE EVER GOTTEN A "STITCH"?

So everything was going great, in fact I was over the moon happy. Until my 10th wk, I went pee, stood up-and the toilet was full of blood...I thougjt I miscarried..went to e.r. the baby is still thete, strong heartbeat.. e.r. could not give me a solid explanation of why I beld!?! So I went to see a "high risk" obgyn later that week- they looked inside & told me that my cervix tore & that there was no measurable cervix...I was like "what does that mean???".

so they told me, I needed to have a stitch put in(they stitch ones cervix, so the baby doesn't fall out. the cervix is ONLY supposed to open at about 36+ weeks, when one is about to deliver. my cervix is weak, and as the baby grows & becomes heavier- it puts strain & pressure on the cervix...the stitch is not a total guarantee. as the stitch could also be torn from the weight of the baby...so I got the stitch put in at 17wks. if the baby were to be delivered before 24wks, very premature, they told me that my baby may be stillborn, or born alive, only to be held in my arms until the baby died "comfort care"... I was a total mess... if the stitch tore before 28 wks, the baby may or may not survive, if the baby did survive, she would have severe developmental disabilities(blind, deaf, heart problems). so now I'm at 30wks- still too early for the baby to be delivered...I'm so nervous, anxious, sad..happy that i made it this far, but the unknown is so scary as I could go into labor tomorrow, next week or make it to the 36wk mark, where the doc removes the stitch, and most likely the contractions will start, as I will be going into labor right away. I'm praying everyday that i at least make it 4-5 more weeks...

so- I was wondering if anyone has had this, if so can tell me about their experience...I'm so out of my mind... I dont want to be too overjoyed, of course I'm already attached!! but I hate that I finally became pregnant after so many years to have my baby just die in my arms...ugh...I'm just so numb...

if anyone can share with me their success story, that would really uplift me, cuz I just keep thinking of all the negative outcomes....