I have been suffering for a few years now with over active prdactin levels! When I first discovered This issUe I had, missed my mohthly and because I couldnt at that time get my hands on a pregnency test, firmly believed I was pregnant!

Anyone who has suffered this knows how it feels you think your pregnant only to find out nine months later that nothing has changed period you have symptoms of pregnancy, tender breasts, indigestion, nausea, moodiness, most obvious of all no monthly. And all you find out when you finally get the chance to go to the doctor is that no you are not pregnant! You'd have a non-cancerous benign tumor on your pituitary gland!

You face this news alone because your now ex-boyfriend never bothers to go to any doctodoctor visit with YOU! You Of course total Fredfreak out!

Your doctor refers you to a specialist who constantly takes blood on every visit to feed hungry Vampires and gives you a script for cabergoline!

You take these meds religiously until your ex stops taking you to your appointmerits! Mind you ladies e AM 80 % Blind and can not drive myself, and at that time I lived to far for my family to help with rides or much else!

Now since July of 2016 I have lived with my now husband who is way more loving, protective, and caring than my ex boyfriend ever WAS!

Yet dispile my monthly being so normaj that ± always Know when they are due, eI still had overactive prolactin! I was put back on the caburgdine and I thought things were t.me!

Now I am yet again confused and slnightly dcpressed... We have No insurence other than my Medicade to pay for my medical needs, and very little money for anythh that Medicade will not cover!

dispite this, we are trying For out first baby.

He is 30 and I am 38. My monthly is as of today S days late| I had a .pee test done in the afternoon of my 3rd late day done by the lab tech at my doctors office and it was regretably a negative result. It took all I had not to break down and cry in my husbands arms!

One of my Adopted nieces missed her monthly and had 3 separate Pee tests done all were done in a doctors office and yet she still got a negative rosuIt. she had the doctor test her blood and the result Was positive! This thought gives me hope yet ± stil AM very unsure!

On one hand I say what if my case is something like hers? Then On the other hand I think what if ± simply took the pee test too late in the day or to Sooh?

what if since ± had to change doctors and have not taken any cabergoline that prdactin thing is acting up again? What if I AM too old?

I cant believe I wasted 20 Years of my life with a careless idiot who didn't take my asthma seriously for S yearsuntil ± WAS out of meds and had a severe attick!

Why does it hunt me so badly to see or to be around other adults and thier happ children? why do ± find SO many people who don't need, want, Or deserve and who sometimes abuse or abandon or throw away tho er beautiful babies like trash?

why couldn't I find my wonderfit husband sooner in life? Will the Fact that I was born at 4 months early prevent me from obtaming my lifelong dream of having my Own baby?

When will I be SO blessed and when will my tears of sadness turn to tears of joy?