Disappointed in myself & I know I shouldn’t be.

I recently have gone on a weight loss journey. I started at 196 lbs (😱). I hid my scale exactly a month ago because I have a very toxic relationship with it lol. I finally weighed myself this morning and I’m at 187. That’s only 9 lbs. I was really really hoping for a bigger loss. I know a loss is a loss but it’s frustrating. I’ve been to the gym 5 times a week and eating so healthy and clean. I recently (3 days ago lol) gave up meat and I’m hoping that helps. Any suggestions on how to lose more?