I give up!!!

I officially give up TTC. This is month 9 and it’s way too exhausting to hope and pray and it doesn’t happen. Plus, I see how sad he gets when my cycle starts and I don’t want to disappoint him again so I’d rather save us both the heartache and give it up. It’s no longer worth the disappointment. It’s like I’m 30! Maybe I’ve allowed myself to get too old.