from official to no label

my ex boyfriend / best friend & i have been friends online for three years and we have had a “thing” for most of our friendship. in april he decided to make things offical and asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. however, he broke things off early september due to the fact that it was difficult for him to be with me without actually being able to hold me.

after our break up we both felt extremely empty and he regretted it because we both still had feelings for each other which led us to take a break for a while to think some things through after thinking of a way to solve the problem of distance in the quickest way we could we decided to be exactly how we were in our relationship but without a label and we would still be committed to each other. so far the situation is working fine for us but i don’t understand why he broke things off in the first place if he never intended on letting me go and the distance is still there.

ive talked to him about feelings as though we are in a friend’s with benefits situation, however he disagrees due to the amount of time we invest in each other and the amount of compassion we have for each other. i just wish I could officially be his girl.

(lower case intended and what’s your advice?)