I'm sitting at home while Hubby is at work and I noticed my sons swing we have sitting by the tv. He has been in the NICU for almost 2 months and will be for about another month.. I stared at the swing for a few minutes and thought to myself, I'm 21 years old, didn't go to college for psychology like I wanted to, live in a BFE town in West Virginia, have no friends, work as a cashier and I have a son.. I have a baby. I have a son. I HAVE A SON! OMG!. I gave birth 2 months ago! Omg. Life goes by so fast... It's like just yesterday I was taking a test expecting it to be negative like they always are, but it wasn't.. Now I have held that positive in my arms and Im watching everything I do and Googling if doing this or that will go into breast milk..

I can't believe I have a child..I wanted kids but never saw myself actually having one.. Im terrified and excited for him to come home.