Mother

Ok this is off topic but y'all give good advice so what the hell when I was young my mom abused me alot when I was 14 she left me did not see her for 16 years I ended up living with her taking care of her a year ago I met the man of my dreams we became engaged recently got our own place and starting ttc she now thinks I owe her my life she only calls when she wants something when I lived with her I had night terrors and hallucinations they have since went away I'm happy exept for no baby but every time she's in my mind I get frustrated and angry and unhappy is it wrong that I want to cut her out of my life? Please no rude comments and don't judge me you don't know me