Ever feel broken and useless?

My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for four years and nothing. I’m starting to feel like I’m broken and just a waste of time to him.

Although, I’m going on a week late for my period and have never been late before. I just woke up and took a pregnancy test, negative.. I really don’t want to tell him and disappoint him. My anxiety and depression get worse with each passing month, each negative pregnancy test, and every time someone says “you’re not knocked up yet? What’s wrong with you.” My response, a giggle and telling them I’m broken.