It's been 6 months since I left. You've been constantly emailing me ever since-at least every 2 weeks. Why is it that I have to keep reminding myself of what you did? Why do I love you this way? I want to talk to you but I know I shouldn't. After I left, you made me lose my job because of the constant harassment and your mom helped. You told everybody lies about why I left- to spare yourself. You say how I was bad to you too, but it's nothing compared to choking me so I wouldn't scream when you'd rape me. Or choking me because I was yelling at you to leave me alone. I wish I wouldve known you wouldn't stop so I could've left sooner before I got in deeper. I've built walls up around myself and I can't seem to connect with people....why do I miss you? You were sweet to me...maybe it's because you were my first and we were together for 2 years but you changed so much. I couldn't even see my parents once a week without you freaking out...

Let me go already...