So I’ll be 18 in 4.5 months. I used to love masturbating until I started having sex. Over the years I’ve lost “connection” with myself and haven’t been able to enjoy masturbating like I used too. However, I’ve never used a sexual toy before. Perhaps because I am to chicken too? Maybe even embarrassed? Not to sure, I do get a lot of emotions thinking about it. With that all being said, I have never had an orgasm before either. Everyone tells me that it may help my anxiety if I do have one time and time again. Any tips on what I could do? I have tried to watch porn, but I’m not into it. It disturbs me watching females be degraded.