Strange friendship

I have a guy friend who I’ve known for almost 5 years, and we have a great (but strange) friendship but extreme ongoing sexual tension.

He asked me out a year ago and I initially said yes.

But then I thought about it and got afraid of commitment and revoked my yes. He was understanding and had also felt the cold fingers of spooky commitments LOL. 😂

We have a strange relationship where we talk about uncomfortable subjects but comfortably?

On one hand, I feel like we would be the shittiest couple because we have completely different ideals and ideas of what a relationship should be.

On the other hand I think we would be highly sexually compatible. We have compatible BDSM archetypes and interests and similar taste in almost everything. We even send each other porn links like “hey do you like this?” 🤔We discuss sexual frustrations and personal habits and personality and trade helpful tips, however most talk is about our mutual love 😍of girls (I’m bi)

But we never DO anything sexual, its purely platonic but if I wouldn’t lose the friendship as a result, I’d fuck him if he asked, js.🙃

I feel like it is a slightly strange relationship that many would be quick to judge but I love it and I need to tell eve about it because i don’t want to tell anyone I know personally. 💜🍀