i mean i know it has to be done. and i know it’s for the best but this induction has got my anxiety at an all time high. i’ve taken 2 doses of the cytotec and it’s making me contract but i’m maybe a 2 so i have to sit here and deal with the contractions until i am far enough along to get the epidural. but what’s worse is they have me on the monitors and my baby won’t quit moving so they keep losing the heart rate on the monitor and it’s freaking me out. i mean i know she’s moving and stuff but i can’t quit obsessing about making sure it’s not too low or too high and it’s seriously stressing me out!!! they want me to try and rest and there is just no way that’s going to happen. i’m too scared that anything and everything will go wrong. i just wish we could have kept her in there a little bit longer and not forced her out 😭😭😭