I’m not posting this as a way of seeking attention, I’m posting this because I seem to be heading towards an eating disorder.

I currently weigh about 58 kilos, which has changed a lot since last year since I was about 65. But I’ve completely flatlined with my weight loss and I just seem to be bloating more and more.

I know that my eating habits aren’t great. I’m 17 and still live at home, but none of my family know about how I really feel about myself.

I restrict my eating during the day since I don’t want to bloat, but then seem to eat it all back at night. The best way to describe it is that I eat because I’m stressed but I’m stressed because I eat.

I don’t know how to do anything from this point. I have a gym membership and try to go at least 4-5 days a week, 3 minimum. I do a lot of cardio, some muscle training (abs with my friend once a week and a few of the machines every day)

And like I said, this probably isn’t a good weight loss plan either.

But I’m just so fucking stuck. I’m sick of looking like I do and constantly having it on my mind. It makes me feel like shit and it takes up my thoughts all day.

I don’t know how to bring it up to my best friend or family for help either.

To put it simply I’m a big fucking mess so if anyone can help me, please let me know.

(Excuse the awkward scribbling to get rid of any personal items since I don’t want anyone to recognise me)