i don’t know how im supposed to feel rn

last night my friend came over and we kissed (it was my first kiss) and he was kissing my neck and he touching me down there, then i sucked his dick(also my first).🙃 uh i don’t know how to feel because we did things before but it wasn’t like that and he’s 18 and I’m 14, i feel lowkey used. we got in trouble because he messed around with me when I was 10, he was 14. my parents figured out, but they didn’t figure out i did things with him last year & recently 🙃

any thoughts / advice on this ?