I don't know Why

Not to suck my own dick but I think I have pretty decent physical features as well as a decent personality. My friends are always in relationships and get into them pretty easily, I am always third wheeling and kinda feel like an annoyance if I'm hanging out with them. Don't get me wrong I'm very insecure but I don't show it and I've heard reassurance that I'm beautiful blah blah. And I know it's not wrong, I'm just insecure for my own reasons. But anyways, I don't get why I haven't had my chance yet. I have a lot of love to give and I get way to emotionally invested to have a bunch of meaningless flings and one night stands. I literally break my own heart and I don't wanna do that anymore. I've been intimate with one person and they were a fuck boy and didn't respect me and just played with my emotions and used me as a sex toy basically. and I'm still wondering why I wasn't good enough to be more than a sex toy or a hookup. Like sometimes I'm like fuck it it doesnt matter everyone hooks up but it takes a toll on me I can't. I want my own person to cater to and to appreciate me and grow together. But I've never had a boyfriend. Not in middle or highschool. and I'm a freshman in college and relationships are not peoples priorities and I get that. But is something wrong with me!? I'm not giving up hope but I feel defeated. I don't *need* a bf but I would like to have one. It's literally so easy for everyone around me and they are loyal to one another and have sweet moments and it's like fuck I want that!!! when people see me it's either I'm totally kidding ignored or guys just wanna have fun and they are the ones with girlfriends and I'm just like where is my future boo bc these dudes are annoying. I want to be treated right for once :/