Perpetually Single

I’m almost 20 and I have never been on a date. I’ve kissed a guy and been fingered but nothing more. All my friends right now have SOs and I don’t. Most of the time this doesn’t bother me. Tonight is one of the times it is. I few years ago I had a bad experience with a boy, who wouldn’t understand I didn’t want to be his girlfriend (not sexual assault but) it was upsetting. Since then I have been nervous about guys asking me out. Tonight I was asked out. I just sort of told him I’m super busy these days and that’s it. Also, I think I’m demisexul. The few guys I have been into in the past year have all have girlfriends. I don’t know. It’s just sort of gotten to the point where I have accepted my perpetual single status. I feel like I can only talk so much to my friends about this because they all are in relationships. I just needed to get that off my chest.