I’m constipated even though I’m taking meds for it and I drink a ton of water. I am almost in tears from my tummy cramping while just trying to go to the bathroom over the past half an hour. So now I’m laying in bed thinking about labor. I had an epidural with my first about 3 hours into labor and there was no way around that. It was so painful, and i was completely irrational.... I kept telling my husband I wanted to leave the hospital... like that would have helped. Anyway, turns out I was having back labor so she was pressing against my spine. After 21 hours and not progressing past 8, we were off for a c-section. Which was fine, great, I recovered easily, yada yada. But I was 29 then. I’ll be 41 when this dollface arrives and I’m not sure I’ll bounce back from a c section as I did last time. So I’ve been serious about vbac. Um.... but.... if I can’t handle pain from constipation cramps methinks I’m going to lose it trying for a vbac.

Apologies for rambling. My tummy my hurts and I’m feeling sorry for myself and I’m emotional and I just want a hug and my mom to come take care of me. 😑🤗💩