Feeling a little down

I am now 10 DPO and I am so scared to test. I keep seeing everyone that’s around 8/9/10 DPO posting their obvious positives and I am really happy for you all but I just get so down. I just know I am going to end up with a BFN testing this early just because I know I’m not one of them “ lucky ones “ I’ve been TTC baby #2 for about 3 months and haven’t had any luck... ugh 😩 wish me luck ladies! This 2WW is gunna be the end of me 😩😩