My husband has been pretty hurtful lately. Last night we had a fight and he kicked me out of our bedroom - like a dog. He barely let me grab a pillow on the way out. So i went and slept in the spare bed in the office... well, TRIED to sleep. Mostly i just cried. Btw, this man who kicked me out is the same man who won't let me sleep in the spare bed when he doesn't wear his cpap machine and he's snoring (which I'm not angry when i do that, it's just too get some sleep) because we have an expensive fancy bed and we need to use it.

This morning, i tried to be the biggest person, and i gave him a hug because i said if God forbid anything happens to either one of us today, i would hate for that to be our last interaction. He kinda gave me a half ass hug and didn't say anything to me in his way out, and no texts today. Now, I'm at home (still nothing from him) being bored going through facebook and see he's out from a picture HE posted. W/ a girl. I think maybe i know her and it is legit just a friend but, like, it seems really inconsiderate to not talk to your wife all day and post a photo of you out with some girl. I'm on fb, not Instagram. He has Instagram which he uses way more, but of course posted this on fb. He's also just super bossy and controlling. I know this is all just petty stuff, he's not hitting me or anything. But he's just so cold sometimes, and I'm, like, I'm supposed to want to have his kids when he treats me this way?? Anyways, i know that was long. It's just, i don't want to talk to my friends or family about it so they don't develop negative feelings toward him. So i feel SO alone. More alone than i ever felt single. I was fine single.