I crawled into bed, prayed to God, then closed my eyes for a second...and there I was pinned to the shed with his dark shadow in front of me. I hate this. I hate closing my eyes. I hate remembering. I hate going outside alone. The mind is such a powerful thing. I went from something positive to my mind going dark in less then a second. I’ve had so much counseling, but yet sometimes I feel like I’m back to where it all happened. I just wish it would stop.