So my husband and I have been wanting a baby for more then a year but have only actively been trying for 4 months now because we wanted to get our lives in order before we added a baby to it. Every month I get excited and then af shows up and my heart breaks. Monday I am supposed to start and this is the same day my youngest sister is being induced for an accidental pregnancy. I want so badly to be happy for her but I’m having a really hard time. She wasn’t trying and she got pregnant with a baby she didn’t want and I am over here trying to tell myself 4 months isn’t long enough to be worried and it will happen... but it’s hard to believe sometimes. I’m jealous of my sister and all my pregnant friends and I am very disappointed in myself for not being able to just be happy for them. 😔