39+2 feeling defeated, frustrated, and ready to meet my daughter

Jenna

I went to the dr on Friday for my 39 week appointment. I’ve been dilated to a 3 for the last week and had progressed a little further on Friday to 3.5 cm. Dr swept my membranes to try and stimulate some decent and consistent contractions. Fast forward to Friday afternoon, contractions were about 6 minutes apart lasting a little over a minute. Dr said to go to L and D if they were 5 minutes apart lasting at least one minute for at least an hour....we got so close and then the contractions just stopped. I spent all day yesterday waking, cleaning, doing last minute stuff, and trying to chase after my 2yo son in hopes to kick start contractions again. I’ve lost my plug over the past 3 days now, there’s been quite a bit of blood, not bright, and my water has not broken. Baby is still plenty active in there. I’m over being pregnant, my back is killing me, my hips feel like they are being ripped apart. I know if I go to L and D they will just send me home. If I don’t go in to labor before this coming Friday, my next appointment. I will probably be climbing the walls begging for an induction, or I’m just going to be pregnant forever!