Pregnant?

Kati • I have two amazing little boys, Zayden and Quentin that are Irish twins. Feb 2013/2014. Sweet rainbow baby sister Bexley came in Aug 2017. Our angel Zeppy Rose was born sleeping June 2018. Currently TTC #5.
I'm dreading Friday because I'm so certain I'll be so sad if my period comes. I've been having mad cravings which is a fist sign for me in all of my pregnancies but no other signs except strange dreams. At this stage in the waiting game it's so hard to distinguish what's real and what's in your head because you wanna be pregnant so badly. I did have some random bleeding a few days back that I thought could be implantation bleeding but it's really anyone's guess. Anyone else having symptoms? This tww is dragging and dragging!