Feeling down..

Jessica • 29, Married. FTM to Sebastián James 11.30.19.

I had a chemical back in March, and i remember at the time of my faint pos thinking that I’d be fairly pregnant at my sisters wedding in October (now 2 weeks away). Well my 2 days of faint pos turned to negatives and I got af a few days late. And nothing happened for me in the following months. Just routine cycles.

Now I started my period today, right on time when I was hoping for a bfp.

And I just remembered how if my chemical had been a sticky bean instead, right now I’d have a lovely bump and feel kicks. Instead I have an empty womb and a sad heart.

When will my day come to become a mommy finally?