TTC for 21 months

I wish this was a success story but instead it’s a once again I haven’t gotten pregnant -.- and honestly I don’t know if I can deal with this heart break of constant negatives anymore, how do you girls do it, how does anyone do it, I’m sat crying in work and I feel loopy, i hate myself because I can’t have the one thing I want as easy as anyone else, I work out, I eat healthy, I do 10000 steps a day, like I take prenatal, I go to counselling, only thing I’m missing is a baby, I have my life so in check it’s unbelievable.