Always worried ?

Robbie
I had a MC back in March and when I found out I was pregnant again with my rainbow baby in June I was so happy but so scared at the same time. Every little crap I over think. Every time I go the bathroom I'm scared to wipe in fears of blood being there. But then I find myself going just to check. My subconscious gets me in my dreams too. I keep having roughly the same dream I go the bathroom and just gush out blood. It wakes me up out if a dead sleep every time and I rush to the bathroom to make sure. I just wanna be able to relax already. Maybe once I get in my second trimester I can   Be able to relax. Haven't really told people yet so I don't really have many people to talk to.