Relapse + PMS

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so I always get really hormonal when my period is about to start, but it has been getting out of hand. I relapsed (self harm) earlier and couldn't stop sobbing alone in my room.

i keep telling myself it's just PMS but these feelings are way too intense and I'm not sure how I'm gonna get through this week.

i genuinely feel like a burden to the people around me and I'm scared of bringing this up out of fear that they'll get annoyed (I know that isnt logical to think but I get depressive episodes very often).

i'm in my first year of college and these overwhelming feelings are getting in the way of my assignments. i feel useless and pathetic.

i'm in so much stinging pain, behind in all my classes, and am distancing myself from my friends and gf. i need help.