Seeing the family members who I grew up with, the ones I learned to love, be happy with their families without my babies and I .. really just kills me on the inside. I keep having the same people send me friends requests on Facebook and they keep inboxing me, asking why I took them off my page again. I'm so tired of having to explain myself. Why should I show you anything when y'all see me sitting here suffering, Mentally, Physically... just hurting all over, because im all alone. Because my family dont show me no love...and y'all do nothing but watch? I'm tired of stepping on eggshells . This shit needs to be said because no one else is gonna say it. How can I just let all this go and just move on? Who don't need their family? Who don't wanna hug their mama everyday and tell her you love her, or to just hear her say she loves you? When you're so used to that life, it hurts like hell when it's snatched away from you. I feel like I'm dead .. but I'm right here. I am always going to be me. I think I am a good person. Like Willow Smith said " You're you, I'm me, let's live in harmony

Coexist with each other, love each other

Be yourself, you have to be yourself

Be real, be honest

'Cause ain't nobody got time for that

They really don't",.