I need to vent 😡😭

So I’m currently 38 weeks pregnant and I shine excited and planning my delivery of my son with my doctor that followed me throughout the pregnancy... wrong! My doctor is in Texas for a family emergency. I get it we all have family emergencies and that’s not what has me bent. For the last 2 weeks I have been seeing midwives and I feel as if I’m in complete limbo! No one wants to help me have a vaginal delivery all I hear is that my doctor has it written to deliver by c section by the time I’m 39 weeks! Well guess what I’ll be 39 weeks in 7 days! I really feel as if everyone in my clinic is sitting around with their thumbs up their butts! I don’t want a c section and I feel as if it is being pushed on me! Can someone please talk me down or help me please? I’m scheduled to see the clinic of no help tomorrow 😭😭😭