So I have like too really good friends and they are both extremely pissed at me right know and I don’t know what I did I wasn’t talking about behind there back I did nothing to up set them but every time I would come near them they would get all bitchy I tryed to talk to them but they wouldn’t even talk I have just been having a ruff time lately and I haven’t even tryed to talk to them about it even before they were mad at me because I am usually the friend that bears all the advice and help and I just hold all my emotions in and don’t put it on them it would be nice if I could use them as a stress relief like they use me

Then there is this problem where I think I have like feeling for my child hood friend jake and not just emotionally physically we are in the marching band together and we both play sports out side of that but today we where on a trip for band and we where talking about this stupid game to our other friends and we were trying to explain it and jake said just show him so I put my hand on his thigh like really high on his thighs becuse we were explaining the game (wake the snake ) it’s a stupid sexual game and I touched his thighs and we both got this like weird feeling and like we keep explaining the gam and stuff to our other friends but I can stop thinking about me touching his thigh and our hands touching each other I know it is stupid but I don’t know y I am getting this feeling I don’t think he has it tho and I don’t know I guess I would just like to get some serious advice on both and try and get in a better place with my friends and try and stop thinking about jake so some advice about anything at all would be great

I just wish my friends would understand that my day starts at 4:30 am and I don’t get to even go near my bed till at least 10:30 pm between all my farm chores all my sports and my academic clubs and also that my parents are always breathing down my neck to be better and work my hardest and on top of all that I give all of my friends advice stay up with them when they need it even when I am super tied and stress I just would like some advice about anything in general ig