Back story I was cheated on by my then husband of 11 yrs, told to leave took the kids and moved 4 hrs away and started a new life in my parents house,

6 months ago I feel head over hills for a guy who lives 1 1/2 hrs away, he fell for me to, but now I sit and seriously think about our future I don’t know if or when I will be ready to move in with someone as the fear of loosing everything again is to strong, I don’t know if I can become his wife and have kids like I know he wants in the future, I told him this and I have broken my own heart but telling him as well as his, I don’t want to hold him back and miss out on what I have already experienced, because I don’t know if or when I’ll ever be ready to let someone in like I did before, 😭😭😭 did I do the right thing?