I dont know whats wrong with me....i hace zero interest in sex. I still do it, just to keep my boyfriend around & from going somewhere else to get. I want to want to have sex..& im only 30, this should not be a problem for me yet. I am super stressed out with out everything thats going on in my life right now, but surley that cant be the reason i feel this way. Yeah we do have some intimact problems, im just not turned on by"hey touch this", or "baby kiss him" 75% of us having sex is me sucking his dick. Dont get me wrong, he loves it, therfore i love it. But it doesntget me turned on.so hes hes constantly being aroused and then theres me that will just get penetration for pleasure. Cuz i dont really like him to go down on me for a fear of a unpleasant smell or taste he might get. I dont feel sexy at all anymore. And all i can come up with is that i used to be on drugs, and since ive met him,i don't take those drugs anymore. They helped. Me get out of myself & all my paranoid thoughts & me thinking.."do i look fat right now" so without those xanxs ijust dont feel comfortable in my own skin, & the only thing i have come up with, is that maybe i. Dont know how to have sober sex....and what if i never figure out how...i mean im lying here next to him, we just tried to have sex. But then my total lack of enthusiasm just killed it entirely. Now hes mad & asleep & here i lay thinking whats wrong with me